After some soul searching following last week’s bad news I’ve decided I’m not going to try to get pregnant. It’s with a heavy heart that I have taken the decision that I don’t think I can put myself into the position where I could knowingly face the disappointment of constant failures of IUI cycles, the anxiety of a very high risk pregnancy, or the trauma of losses (esp if these were “late”).
These things could happen to anyone (and I know they have happened for many of you in this group), but I feel like it’s one thing having to cope with an unexpected tragedy and another to deliberately put yourself into that situation. Psychologically I don’t think I’d cope well.
Don’t know what to do.
I spoke to the doctor and while he hasn’t said not to try to conceive; he has said that with my unresponsive uterine lining the chances of conception (implantation) are very low AND on top of that the risks of miscarriage/preterm delivery/Intrauterine Growth Restriction are high. I’m not worried about chances of conception being low; I’m concerned about the risks to the pregnancy and the child, and whether I can knowingly put myself into that condition and cope with the associated stress/emotional consequences.
What a difference 13 days can make… or not.
In the last 2 weeks the lining of my uterus has grown by measly 0.6mm.
So, I’ve been on a cocktail of estrogen and aspirin for 2 weeks now, and been to ACU for 2 scans.
Mr E (my consultant) is happy with progress so far… Continue reading
Cycle day 1 has arrived so my monitored cycle starts now.
I spoke to Dr E and from tomorrow I start taking Climaval 2mg (estrogen), 2 in the morning and 2 in the evening, as well as 1 “baby” asprin per day. Then I have to go for a scan on Monday to see whether my stubborn lining decides to respond and grow.
Just a quick update… I had another scan at ACU on Monday so Dr E could have a mid-cycle baseline measurement of my endometrium.
There was a “lovely” follicle ready to ovulate so that should have been “kicking out” a good amount of estrogen to grow my lining. Sadly the lining only measured 4.5mm (should have been 8+). Obviously I’m now used to this so I took that in my stride. Continue reading