So anxious (not the Ginuwine song! 😁)

I disappeared for a while after my last post (in March) because a) I’ve been doing a lot of waiting, and b) things are not going great. I’m going to do this update in 2 posts because otherwise it’ll be too long!

So… when I saw the Consultant at ACU back in January he gave me a list of things that I need to do before we could go ahead:
1) Get the all clear from my GP and the perinatal mental health team  – [tick]
2) Have the mandatory sessions for implications  counselling (because I’m using donor sperm) and the Welfare of the Child Assessment – [tick]
3) Get my BMI under 30 – [in SLOW progress]
4) Have a hysteroscopy to check for polyps and investigate the health of my womb since my lining is thin – [NIGHTMARE!!!]

The first 2 went without a hitch, but the last two…
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Weigh in: 215

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Just a quick weight update. I’m down roughly 4 lbs to 215lbs*. That’s a step in the right direction 👍- especially since I’ve been sticking to no eating plan whatsoever and really not done much exercise.

So…. I’m not going to be bikini ready for my vaycay next week but at least this loss is motivation. Not sure I’ll lose anything on holiday so my goal will be to not put on!

****That’s 15 st 9 lbs for my UK readers****

219!!! 😯😯😯😯

So for the first time in a long time I stepped on the scale this morning. OMG.

219lbs! (15st 9lbs). I can’t believe I’ve let myself get this heavy. I’ve put on around 10lbs since I started this blog. I’m 5′ 7″ so this weight puts me well into the “obese” category according to BMI (although I don’t think I look “obese” or as even very “big” – until i see photos).

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