Author: wannabemama1982

1 door closes… how many others should I leave open?

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After some soul searching following last week’s bad news I’ve decided I’m not going to try to get pregnant. It’s with a heavy heart that I have taken the decision that I don’t think I can put myself into the position where I could knowingly face the disappointment of constant failures of IUI cycles, the anxiety of a very high risk pregnancy, or the trauma of losses  (esp if these were “late”).

These things could happen to anyone (and I know they have happened for many of you in this group), but I feel like it’s one thing having to cope with an unexpected tragedy and another to deliberately put yourself into that situation. Psychologically I don’t think I’d cope well.
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Where do I go from here? Is it the end of the road?

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Don’t know what to do.

I spoke to the doctor and while he hasn’t said not to try to conceive; he has said that with my unresponsive uterine lining the chances of conception  (implantation) are very low AND on top of that the risks of miscarriage/preterm delivery/Intrauterine Growth Restriction are high. I’m not worried about chances of conception being low; I’m concerned about the risks to the pregnancy and the child, and whether I can knowingly put myself into that condition and cope with the associated stress/emotional consequences.

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A ray of hope

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Just a quick update… I had another scan at ACU on Monday so Dr E could have a mid-cycle baseline measurement of my endometrium.

There was a “lovely” follicle ready to ovulate so that should have been “kicking out” a good amount of estrogen to grow my lining. Sadly the lining only measured 4.5mm (should have been 8+). Obviously I’m now used to this so I took that in my stride. Continue reading →