Perinatal Mental Health

HappySad FaceSo, I’ve hinted/skimmed over this before but I have a diagnosis of Bipolar Disorder. Specifically Bipolar II which is characterised by mainly experiencing periods of depression, and a “milder” form of elevated mood called hypomania – not the full on mania people usually associated with Bipolar.

I’ve been stable for quite a few years now, but Bipolar is a “serious mental illness” (and comes under the psychosis category although I don’t consider myself “psychotic”!!), so it’s something that needs to be considered and managed through out the pre-conception period, pregnancy, and post-partum…
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A follicle!!

Happy happy happy!!! I had a HyCoSy and Aquascan today and I have a mature follicle! A nice juicy 19.5mm on CD12. This means that despite my periods still only lasting part of a day, it looks like ovulation has returned! And my tubes are clear! Yay!!!! ☺😊☺😊

On another, not so great, note… They found an endometiral polyp/adhesion though so that needs checking out and removing… so I doubt I’ll be doing my first IUI in Feb as I’d hoped… but that’s OK. If need be it gives me more time to save up and lose a bit more weight before officially TTC.

And when the time comes I may actually be able to try unmedicated cycles (if my endometrium thickness improves… I have a mature follicle but my uterine lining is thinner than “normal” and I think I have a short Luteal phase). I’ve had another set of positive readings on the OPKs this week and the scan confirmed that the test seems to be accurate so fingers crossed my cycle gets regular again.

Anyhoo…. I’d better not get ahead of myself… Let’s see how the consultation at ACU goes tomorrow…

Possibly changing clinic

I really like the atmosphere at the private Harley Street clinic (a.k.a “The Baby Making Place” or TBMP) I’ve been to so far however, it’s pricey and it’s not really conveniently located from my office. Since I’m going for stimulated cycles I’m going to need monitoring via ultrasound scans and inevitably some of these will fall on work days. Because of this I think it is more practical to chose a clinic that’s nearer to work.

There’s a big NHS hospital very close to my office (which also happens to be the hospital where I was born!!) and they have an Assisted Conception Unit (ACU). Their prices are lower than TBMP – on the procedural side it’s not a massive difference per treatment, but after a few cycles the significance of that “small” amount increases dramatically.
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I’m back! (Happy New Year) and choosing a donor part 1

First of all let me wish all my readers a happy. healthy, and prosperous 2016! This is going to be a big year for me and I’m so excited (and a little bit scared!)

Anyhoo – I’ve taken quite a long break from the blog over the pre-Christmas, Christmas and New Year period. I went on my much anticipated trip to México and Florida and it was AWESOME 🙂 This was (hopefully) my “last hurrah” as a childless person so I made the most of the sun, clubs and tequila in Playa del Carmen and Canún. wp-1452244501027.jpg
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She came, but she didn’t stay

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Aunt Flo has left the building  – already!!

After my BBT charting and OPK smiley face, cravings, bloated tummy and acne I was really hoping these were all signs that I was finally going to have a “real” period. I haven’t had a proper one since March, and totally skipped late-September and October. My GP induced a bleed in November and I was praying that this effectively pressed a “re-start” button for my hormones… no such luck 😢 Continue reading

Day 12 post-Provera

Hello World.

This is just a very quick update post. It’s now 12 days since my last Provera pill and still no sign of AF 😕.

I am stressed but at this stage I don’t think it should make a difference. What I’m waiting on is an induced bleed as a result of a forced change in hormone levels, a simple chemical reaction. It’s so irritating that it hasn’t happened, I think I’m actually starting to believe that I’m not going to bleed. *Big sigh*

Anyhoo… my GP referred me for an appointment with a gynaecologist at hospital. So, the hospital appointments booking people rang me on Monday to offer me an appointment at my local hospital and the soonest they had was 30th December. What??? There’s no way I could live in limbo that long, wondering what the heck is going on with my body!

Fortunately the lady was able to find an appointment at a different hospital to the one the doctor had specified, so I now have an appointment next Thursday at a central London hospital  which happens to be a) 5 mons away from where I work, and b) where I was born!

Fingers crossed something happens with AF between now and then, and they’re able to figure something out at my appointment.

I’m going on holiday in December and I want to go without a massive weight on my shoulders so I can truly relax and enjoy myself. 🌴🌴 If all goes according to plan this will be my last holiday pre-baby!